Finished my book......

        I finished the book. It was good, it was about a woman's near death experience and how she came back to this earth plane because it was not her time, but the journey she is on helped her to cope and help her family go through the death of her 19 year old son. It was a good book to read I thought there would be more about her journey of how she has come through this and is making it after the loss of her son.  I was more about her  journey and what it felt like and why she came back.    I enjoyed it but not as much as Heaven is for Real. Heaven is for Real gets 5 starts*****.
         I am not much a of book critic and I have not been able to read a lot of books.  I have to be honest if the book does not catch me in the first few pages or first chapter I go on to the next.  Once I am into a book I start reading and usually fall asleep.  I think it is because I am so tired and try so hard for everything to be OK. Sometimes what you see on the outside is not what is going on in the inside. I am blessed to have the best husband, daughters, family and friends to help me get through this time in my life. I am reminded daily  of all the blessing we have.  I am blessed to have had 15 beautiful years with my baby girl. It was her journey and my journey now of missing her so much.  Please Dear Lord give me the guidance  and strength to make it through this and to be the best wife, mom and friend I can be.  Be patient in my baby steps through this journey in my life. I am protected, guided and blessed.  Thank you God.

Blizzard 2013

So the Blizzard of 2013 has  come we made it through, now it is raining only in New England. All I know is people were talking how bad it was going to be, nothing can be a bad as our blizzard of the summer of 2012.  Its a little snow, it will all be melted away and a memory.  I am thankful that everyone is safe and OK and I pray all the the workers out there helping make the street safe and  drivable.  Listen to the news and stay off the streets unless it is an emergency stay home and be safe. 

Here are a few pictures of my Saturday morning before and while driving into work with my neighbor. Rick snow-blowing so i could get to the road the town finally plowed at 8AM and then Linda and I left to make it to the hospital I am thankful she drove. It was actually not a bad ride a little slip sliding in the four wheel drive. The highways were crazy like the plow trucks were drunk while plowing  there were mazes to drive in and out of.  Probably because of the white out conditions that were occurring during the night.  I went to bed and the snow was about 4 inches I woke up at 5AM and the snow was over 24 inches with drifts of over 3 feet it was crazy. Luckily the plow came through by 8am and we were off.  Some of the pictures are what we saw on the ride in. We plowed through the entrance of the highway and we had a maze to get through on the highway. I-91 north. Cars were abandoned on the highway covered in snow, a couple of tractor trailers stuck. Hartford streets were tight we got in. Now I am home and comfy in my bed.. I was an experience. My life as a nurse, we had some great patients who got in had amazing deliveries now. W all this new weather. It's gonna be a busy unit...stay safe everyone. We are staying by the fire today. When I called home the girls wanted to go on sleep overs I would not let them go as I  had not been home in 36 hours and I was being selfish so I could spend time with them since we are not going anywhere today.  Being away from them all of them they keep me alive.   I know that Nicole would have loved this snow she loved to  go out and play and go sledding and especially her and Rachel after this store would be batting there eyes and saying "please daddy can we go skiing..  "So glad I have the memories Oh the girls love the snow.  Well after just getting OOB  oh my Out of bed I have hospital lingo on the brain   I am up and now starting the day the fire is crackling I will leave you with an old picture of the girls int he snow and a lot of the ride into work.  what an adventure.   Blessed to have had a good ride in a great weekend with an awesome staff and now today  I am protected, guided and protected Than you Lord. 

Blizzard of 2013  our back door

Rick plowing a path so I could get out to the road

our driveway 6am

another truck on the side of the highway buried

We were going to make it there.

Asylum St truck abandoned

January 2011 Blizzard

Rick shoveling the roof of the bard

 Nic not wanting a picture taken out in the snow

Nic and E on the top of a snow bank  in the back you can see it is as high as the back of Ricks truck bed

Sun Chaser

So this morning Rachel needed to be brought to school with all her ski equipment and we picked up her friend. As we were driving down the road I said  "it was going to be a beautiful sunrise," she said, " I should not be up before the sun is rising."  So I said" I need a picture" she says "I feel like we are  rainbow chasers chasing the SUN."   I thought it was pretty funny.  We got to school on time and picked up her friend and still got a picture for  mom. Thank you Rachel you are the best.  

I love to chase rainbows, the sun rises and sun sets. They all have new meaning to me. Good morning world, bring on the day. 

Monday Morning Peace......

Today is Monday February 4th I can not believe it is February. The ground hog said 6 more weeks of winter.  Either way we have six more weeks of some kind of weather.  Just don't like bitter cold and I do enjoy sunshine so if we could just have that. I had an awesome weekend, Sunday went to church that  just gives me energy for the week. Then I went over TK's met a woman from China who read palms  your left hand is your blueprint of your life and the right is what you are living. In men it is the opposite.  Not sure how she did it but is was interesting. She was spot on with my career, my life, my marriage, my children.   Then I hung out with some  truly amazing people some that I just met and some that  I had lost touch with for a few years. and now we are reconnecting. TK a woman I met almost 20 years ago when I went to take care of her mother as a visiting nurse. I had to have many conversations with her about her mom and when we met it was like we were long lost sisters. AS the year went on her mom passed away, I was not a visiting nurse anymore and we stayed friends.  When we lived in Ellington I lived almost in her back front yard. When the girls were little I would let me lab off to run and play with her lab and I would walk then when I came back we would sit and talk for hours. She is a mentor in my life someone who has taught me so much. When you meet her her energy just beams. When the accident happened she was right here. after not seeing her for 10 years we have reconnected, like it was 10 mins. I thank you TK for guided me and helping me. I met a man named Will that told me he was in a bad accident he should not of lived. When he was on the table in the hospital he said it was so peaceful.  He said as he was going out he remembered everything people said, there was no pain just peace he said as he started to fair out into this peaceful place, he heard someone yelling NO! and he was able to come back it wasn't his time.  We are only here for a short time, Nicole is in a beautiful place, it doesn't compare to here he said. It is hard to hear because of course I want her here with us This is a beautiful place dammit.  This is just a lay over, Where we are going is going to be beautiful.  WE are here for a short period we must live life to its fullest. Enjoy each day like it is your last.  I am blessed, guided and protected Thank you Lord.
     When I was at TK's a women told me about a new book to read. She said when she read it she could not put it down and recommend it to me. To Heaven and Back I will give you an update.