Wednesday Back to Blogging

I have not been on my blog in a while  I have been up and down a lot this week. Missing my sweet baby girl. Every day is a struggle. I get through each day but the hurt is there and I have said it before it is not as sharp but there is just something missing.  I have my R and E and of course my husband and they get me through each day. Everyone in my life is awesome but only a mom and I should say parents know the pain that I am going through if you have lost a child.  I went to buy stuff for Easter and I look at things in threes. and I find myself putting things back because I don't need a third basket this year. Of course Easter is my favorite holiday a new beginning, it is always my favorite time of year.   I love the flowers that come out and the warm weather.  I love finding dried up old peeps when no one eats them and they get stale.  Although R likes to put them in the freezer but it isn't quite the same. Its the nice hard stale ones.  That reminds me I did not but any so I must get some  3 peeps on weight watchers  one point.  So that being said that is what I am trying to concentrate on ME.  getting healthy I see Nicole in my dreams and I dream of the day we will be reunited but I can't leave yet.  the girls need me and so does R.  So me getting healthy and I know she would want  me too.  I have been blogging on Weight Watchers sites and joining challenges to get moving.  Its working 16 pounds down and I am feeling awesome.  can't wait for summer and shorts.  OF course as soon as it hits 60 I will be in shorts.  

So back to  my picture that I took today I got a text from a friend who said she was thinking of me and Nicole today for no reason and told me to have a blessed day.  I have been having some pretty rough days and to have someone text that  to me was pretty neat.  My friend texts me  "She's bringing sunshine today. Keep posting your sunrise and set photos they connect you."  Boy do they ever so after I got the text the sun was already rising in the East and this is what I got.   Another friend posted on FB " The circle of love will not be broken....It shines on>"   My Angel in Heaven is very busy I know she is with me always I feel her around me all the time. She must be around a lot because this afternoon another friend texts me about the same thing that Nic and I were on her mind all night.   Thank you Nicole for giving me signs and being around I know you are here. I know you are very busy but you can come by anytime in my dreams  and I know that your sisters are always open to it too..  I love you my sweet baby girl.