Mom of 3 girls now missing 1. The loss of my teen daughter.: Summer of 2013

Wow the last time I did any blogging was June 19th so much has happened and I don't know where to start so lets catch up.Rachel graduated 8th grade, School got out, It was a hot summer, we left for Florida. CT had a major heatwave we were in Florida and it was 80 hehehhe, Nicole's birthday the 16th of July, we had a week of fun and memories and reminisced about the old and the new. We had family time it was great. August came I started talking about having a benefit walk for Nicole's scholarship. All the year of firsts have come and gone. IT is still so hard to be without our daughter. I try no to go to the what ifs because that will just bring you down in an instant. everyday is hard I fight to be strong everyday. I miss Nicole so much, she should be driving, thinking about junior prom and where she was going to go to college. I am so glad that she was able to learn to drive before she left us, and I am sure she is driving in heaven. the prom she had homecoming with Matt her freshman year and I know she was there in spirit this past year and will be with her class this year. and college well we all know that she was going to be an eye doctor so she is up in Heaven helping people to see in Heaven. This is what I have know the years before the accident and now making new memories after the accident. It isn't the same, but I know that she is with us always. It breaks my heart for her sisters and they are amazing, her dad and I are getting through with our love and faith it gets us through. We are not the people we were before this happened. I am thankful for all we have and love our girls so much they are our world going to put some pictures up of what has happened up til now and my next blog will be there walk..

while on vacation we had so many signs that you were with us dragon fly's to lights going out for no reason to rainbows all over you were with us my sweet baby girl