Art Therapy

Mandala

R and E made memory boxes

        When this all happens in the back on my mind I did not know what to do, where to go and how or what kind a therapy to do. What should I do for the children. Do  they need therapy?  A little voice in my head said Art therapy at SFHMC through integrated medicine. I called and we were in. It was such a help to use during this time. R,E and myself went and we were able to talk about our feeling it was so good.  the first time we went the girls did memory boxes I did a healing circle called a mandala.  I chose to have a dragon fly and a butterfly in my picture.  It reminds me of the day of Nicole's funeral, I was at the cemetery everyone was in the car I said my last good byes to my baby girl. I so not know how I did it it was so hard to so. As I was standing looking at her casket  one side there was a dragon fly and a butterfly on the other side.   As I saw the both of these fly by I felt my Nicole and knew again she was in a better place. It was a sign. We have to  watch out for signs they help you through the journey. The more I thought why the two I know E does not like butterflies so  It has to be one for R and one for E.  I looked up what they both symbolized and it was so meaningful.

Our angel watching over the 4 hearts

E made Mariah a picture

       The Butterfly is a known for transition and change, symbolizing our soul. A butterfly's life span is about a month, and in that short amount of time they go from a caterpillar to a Butterfly. The butterfly spends its entire life changing and adapting. It first learns how to crawl, then it learns how to fly.Its is said, when a butterfly crosses your path your life is going to change. It may be the simplest change, or a monumental change.... but it is there to let you know that you are transitioning.  Historically, dragonfly symbolism was used in love spells and to bring good luck. Today, it is more commonly used to help one let go of the past, assist in transforming one’s life and understanding dreams.
      Art  therapy  has been wonderful  the girls graduated and have not gone but both have said how much it helped them. I still go  by myself. LG is a kind and wonderful woman who has helped me in so many ways. I am blessed that she  was put in my life to help me and my family through this journey.  Its not easy but to work some emotions out through art is the most wonderful experience. It will be with me forever. We did a mask in therapy on how we were feeling on the inside and on the outside.  my inside looks like a witch doctor/tiger  my emotions are always on a roller coaster.  on the outside I like my colors  a lot circling in my mind and putting on a happy face.  Each day brings different feelings. I try to stay strong you just never know what will set you off or make you think of memories.   If I have a bad one I try to bring it around and do some deep breathing to get back and bring it to the good memories because I have 15 years of great ones.  Sometimes it is harder then others but it gets  little easier each time/    

e is on the left mine in the middle and r on the right

dragonfly