So where do I start. I am a mom of three beautiful daughters. Ages 15, 13, And 12. I am a wife, a mom, and a nurse. I have the best girls a mom could ask for. My oldest daughter had just turned 15 on July 16th 2012. We had just come back from a great family vacation in Maine. The family went to a Jason Aldene concert for Nicole's birthday. We were having the best summer and so was she. She and four friends had been having some fun with her best friends brother and his buddies. Nicole would ride out on the back of a dirt bike with a friend helmet and gear always on. She was having a blast a little ride and then the girls would watch the boys ride. I went to work July 23rd, I am a labor and delivery nurse working 12 hours. At 715 pm Nicole called me said they were coming back in after a quick ride and have a cookout and one of the boys dad would bring her home. She was so happy. I told her I could pick you up. She said no. I love you mom see you about 9pm. I left work after a very busy day. as I was driving home and my best friend calls me I was almost home. "Teri there has been an accident, " I screamed who was hurt, " it's Nicole come to #######'s house meet me there." The ambulance was driving my daughter to the. Hospital. I asked what happened no one would tell me. No one would tell me if she was talking they said "there was blood from her ear." I got to the hospital and she wasn't there yet but brought me to a room. Driving to the hospital I prayed please be ok, God help my baby . The next thing I know I am in a room and a nurse came in to say my daughter was in cardiac arrest. I could not believe what she was saying. NO i yelled hitting the wall continuing to pray. Lord please let her be OK. Bring her back to me. They would not let me in the room, I was devastated. Praying banging the wall. I asked the nurse go to her and tell my baby that her mom and dad love her we are not mad, and come back to us if you can. I called my husband he was on his way. I called the pastor. The clergy that was there was not who I needed. I needed our pastor. The next thing I know they said I could go see her. I told them to stop no more she is gone. My baby girl had died. In a blink of an eye our life has changed forever. How will I tell her dad who was in his way? How will we tell her sisters? July 23rd 7 days after Nicoles birthday Our Life will never be the same. I just started this blog so I think you will be getting me jumping around right now I can't go into all the specifics of the planning of the funeral the service and the days after I will in time blog about that. Right now it will be getting through the tough times the memories we have and the new memories we are making The day to day struggles living on the roller coaster we call LIFE. Everyone has a journey in life and this is ours. Not what I expected, let the journey begin.
I'm not sure how I stumbled across your blog. I lost my 16 year old daughter, Brianna on 7/23/13. Her birthday was 6 days after on the 29th. She would have been 17. My birthday is 7/16. She died in a car accident. We are going to have a memory walk for her at her school in May to raise money for a scholarship in her name. So many similarities. I'm sorry that this is the type of connection we share. I like the idea of your blog and may decide to do something like this to help with my emotions, thoughts, and memories. My heart goes out to you and your family.
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