The Storm...........

We had a storm roll in the other night before dinner. Girls had fun kicking ball into the wind. Family time

Fathers Day

It was a great day for Daddy church lunch and new sneakers. Best daddy the girls could ask for. Love you Rick.

End of the year so much happening.

Where to start My brother was home from Idaho. We had an awesome visit just wish it was longer. We had a great family party. I had been home after gall bladder surgery so now feeling better we made our way up to Maine. Didn't know how the 4 hr trip would be but it was so good that we went. We had great weekend more memories Melissa we are so proud if you. Lisa I am so glad we came another moment in our life that we will cherish. Rachel is graduating 8th grade this year she is very excited. And asked for a party Friday night 7 boys and 7 girls . A camp fire and sleeping in a tent looks like I will sleep in the living room with windows open so I can hear them and be there but not in the tent. 7 boys will leave at 1030. Can't wait until Thursday night. Emily will be going into 8th grade. Looking forward to our summer. Florida in 4 weeks, some days at six flags and the camp comfort zone in August 11 weeks and a lot planned. Can't wait for the heat we have had a lot of rain. I am looking forward to more biking swimming and maybe some hiking. I am feeling great And have been exercising and now after surgery I can't wait to get back full force. SO LET THE SUMMER BEGIN😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎

June 19th peach trees

I was so excited the beautiful flower buds became peaches. I have watched the apple trees during this transition of little apples growing but it made my heart so happy to see this new growth on Nicole's Peach Tree. I was in the back yard like a little girl yelling "come look there are peaches" emily yelled from upstairs are you ok mommy? Yes but come see the peaches I yelled. There were tears in my eye . It is coming up on a year and I miss my daughter like crazy. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her, that something doesn't remind me if her or what he would be doing. I am blessed to know she is with me always her arms wrapped round me the big bear hugs she would give me.i love and miss her her my heart is broken but continues to learn to live with her memories. We have so many. Cherish each day be thankful for what you have. Hug your children and tell them you love them. Spend time with them watch them grow. I have two amazing girls emily and Rachel that I learn so much from each day. Watching them grow like the peach trees.

Taking in the beauty.............

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Lots of beauty on our walks and in our own backyard. I have recently lost weight and eating healthy and. Exercising again. It makes you feel so good.  I had been on a bad spiral of eating chips gaining weight and feeling sorry for myself.  Well I picked up my panty hose and turned me around. No taking care of me. I am so glad I did what I did then . Found out about having surgery it really  helps the recovery..  Rick and I go on walks in the orchard and on the  Scantic  River in town beautiful walks. As well as beauty in our own back yard. My lilac tree bloomed and the apple trees are blossoming.   Nicole's peach tree is  looking awesome. In hope the peaches that come this year will be before or after we get home from Florida.   If not gramma can enjoy them, as she will stay with the dogs.    The signs are. All around, a butterfly flew by while watching a soccer game. Keep smiling down on us baby girl.  You are in our hearts always.   

What have we been up to...........

Life is pretty busy around our house.  Rachel is doing soccer. Ad loving it and emily started playing softball. I am so  happy she is doing a sport. She is so good.  She is on a young team but each time they are doing better and better.   So much progress.  This past weekend the girls made their confirmation.  It was a beautiful day.   I remember two years ago when Nicole made her confirmation it was a beautiful day.  Each day the girls give me something to live for they give so much love and the smiles and hugs. I love my girls more then anything in the world.   Rachel graduates from 8th grade this year she is excited to get up to high school.   I am recovering from minor surgery  and interesting while surfing the web I noticed it was 10 months that date the 23rd one month.  It creeps back,  like I have did before. It's not just the 23rd it's everyday.   So much has changed in our lives.    I am blessed guided and protected.  Thank You God.   

Wednesday Back to Blogging

I have not been on my blog in a while  I have been up and down a lot this week. Missing my sweet baby girl. Every day is a struggle. I get through each day but the hurt is there and I have said it before it is not as sharp but there is just something missing.  I have my R and E and of course my husband and they get me through each day. Everyone in my life is awesome but only a mom and I should say parents know the pain that I am going through if you have lost a child.  I went to buy stuff for Easter and I look at things in threes. and I find myself putting things back because I don't need a third basket this year. Of course Easter is my favorite holiday a new beginning, it is always my favorite time of year.   I love the flowers that come out and the warm weather.  I love finding dried up old peeps when no one eats them and they get stale.  Although R likes to put them in the freezer but it isn't quite the same. Its the nice hard stale ones.  That reminds me I did not but any so I must get some  3 peeps on weight watchers  one point.  So that being said that is what I am trying to concentrate on ME.  getting healthy I see Nicole in my dreams and I dream of the day we will be reunited but I can't leave yet.  the girls need me and so does R.  So me getting healthy and I know she would want  me too.  I have been blogging on Weight Watchers sites and joining challenges to get moving.  Its working 16 pounds down and I am feeling awesome.  can't wait for summer and shorts.  OF course as soon as it hits 60 I will be in shorts.  

So back to  my picture that I took today I got a text from a friend who said she was thinking of me and Nicole today for no reason and told me to have a blessed day.  I have been having some pretty rough days and to have someone text that  to me was pretty neat.  My friend texts me  "She's bringing sunshine today. Keep posting your sunrise and set photos they connect you."  Boy do they ever so after I got the text the sun was already rising in the East and this is what I got.   Another friend posted on FB " The circle of love will not be broken....It shines on>"   My Angel in Heaven is very busy I know she is with me always I feel her around me all the time. She must be around a lot because this afternoon another friend texts me about the same thing that Nic and I were on her mind all night.   Thank you Nicole for giving me signs and being around I know you are here. I know you are very busy but you can come by anytime in my dreams  and I know that your sisters are always open to it too..  I love you my sweet baby girl.